Blogtober Day 2: When I Grow Up

Helene in Between Blogtober

When reading this prompt I instantly panicked. “I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up!”

(Well I don't know now since I can't be Brad Pitt or George Clooney's wife anymore.. RIP childhood dreams.)

www.mtv.com, the hills
When I was younger, I just assumed that when I was a "grown up" I’d know what to do so I didn’t need to worry about it. But now as each year passes I'm still clueless as to where I see myself in a year, or two, or ten. See why I panicked? 

 Looking back.. of course I had the obvious aspirations of every normal little girl growing up..

“Figure skater! Movie star! Singer! QVC host!” --- err what? 

Yeah.. I wanted to be the host of one of those home shopping network shows (secretly I still do…) 


I was always envious of those who knew exactly what they wanted to do in the future. Those that picked a specific college to pursue a dream and then graduated with a job lined up. (Do these people exist?) I was completely enamored with "those" people in college because I was all like .. 

“uh yeah, um I’m currently majoring in.. well, I’m actually an undeclared major.. you know those who want to .. prolong.. thinking ‘bout stuff.. But I think I might like to do work.. in offices. With people.. or without people. You know? I love lamp.” 

lamp, anchorman

The fact that anyone let me into a college with such clear career goals still bewilders me. 

But lo and behold I graduated with a degree in Mass Communications/PR/Journalism. Even after that I still had no idea what I wanted to do. I hopped, skipped, jumped and then crawllllllled from a summer long radio station internship, to my first real hell job, and finally to where I've been currently working for the last 3 years.

I’m so thankful to be employed but I can’t help but feel there is something greater and bigger out there for me. I need to find a career that I am completely passionate about, although I’m not quite certain what that is yet.. Do I know where I plan to go from here? Not really. 

Actually, no not at all. I can see myself doing so many things that it’s hard to pick one category on a job search site. I guess I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing for now until I find that passion I've been craving. 

 (or until Pitt and Clooney come to their senses.... )


Sincerely and Sarcastically,



  1. Sigh, I wanted to be Mrs Troy Aikman or Mrs. Prince William….le sigh, so sad when that dream disappears.

  2. I feel the only job I've been passionate about is coaching volleyball. And yet, I don't find passion in it most days? I'm a real head case.

  3. There is always time to find that job you will eventually love, and the Clooney thing, well Hollywood marriages...

  4. Glad I'm not the only one sad that I can't marry George Clooney. Dreams die hard for us ladies.

  5. Loved that you wanted to be a QVC host...how creative! You are hilarious!

  6. You and everybody else. I think there is a very select few that are actually doing what they 'love' and feel passionate about. I am in school to become a registered pharmacy technician and I hope to pull it off but it's definitely not my passion in life.


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